You're causing a scene, ba-by.

Employer Views: 1

Well... that's legitimately disappointing. But... 1 is better than 0. Right?

[silence lasting well over five minutes]

Ok. That's fine. It's not even 3am. So... No one important is even thinking about getting ready for work yet, let alone perusing hopeful applicant resumes online. Right?

[silence lasting...]

I'm thinking about starting an exercise program. I mean... anything to not stress/obsess over this. Besides that, I discontinued my last one because I got so busy at work and couldn't possibly be bothered to find the time. Well, I've got the time now, don't I? I think this is a brilliant idea. I'll work out for like 5 hours and then take a shower. That'll make it almost 8am. Then, I'll check my e-mail before I go to the DMV. I might walk there if it's not too cold. It's not like I don't have all damn day and it's only ten miles. I might be tired, though, from all the insane exercise. Although, once I channel my rage, I'll be unstoppable. We'll see, I guess. I have to go to the DMV since I've finally got all my paperwork sorted out (3 months later) and can register my vehicle in the state (just when I'm about to potentially leave it). Then I can actually get the damage from the deer hit-and-run estimated and eventually repaired. When I get home, if I still don't have any interested employers trying to track me down, I'll submit several more applications and forward my resume on to even more powers that be. Maybe I'll pack up some more of the apartment and post some of my larger possessions on Craig's List or something so I won't have to cart them to places unknown when I go where ever the hell I'm going when I'm not able to pay the next month of rent in 25 days.

[silence]

I have to wait until January to claim unemployment because of the raise I received earlier this year. If I claim it now, I'll lose out on $400/month. Crazy, I know. That's almost my rent. That's more than an auto loan payment. It takes up to thirty days for the company responsible for handling my retirement to receive official notice of my termination and then respond by releasing funds. In the meantime...

Optimism is a hard, bitter pill to swallow.

[update]

I filled out several more applications. Yay.

[/unconvincing, forced, sarcastic optimism]